Memories so lived and Loved
Memories that haunt you
That’s what people are born to make
Some sweet bitter Memories …
And the downpour kept on stretching
Rain droplets falling beneath the clouds
Kissing the feet of earth
And as they hammered the ground
That Sound
Ohh it’s not less than a great melody
That fragrance
Nobody can explain that feeling
That’s what mother nature has blessed us with
whenever it rains, lots of emotions start to flow
Something that connects between you and rain
And I was there
In that small tea shop
I will never count it as small as the memories here are countless
which can’t even fit in my big heart if I bound them together
And Yes I was still there
With a Cup of tea in my hand
A hot drink to quench my cold thirst
Unlike things that make the best combinations
Opposite poles of a magnet attract each other
So why can’t she and I???
I was dumbfounded
She and me
We were so different
So apart from each other
But even the sun and the Sea meets at the dawn
So why can’t she and I??
The rain was still dancing ahead of my eyes
I was Staring at the Road
I never have been so much impatient before
Suddenly My heart paused
Pulses came down
Skin turned Cold
She was there
carrying the black umbrella
Fighting with the rain
She came and sat beside me
“God, I hate this Rain,” She Told
What is there to hate about?? I asked
Everything, All those messes it creates
and Mr. Rainlover what is there to Love about”
“It’s the Rain, I Just Love the Rain, There is nothing else in it”
“Why do people love without any reason?”She asked
I stared at her
She wanted to know
“It’s because Love is Powerful, You can’t control it, It’s the most badass thing I have ever known,
I hate it, I hate Love
Reasons Create Boundaries, Having reasons means having limitations
But you know love, It’s Wild, It doesn’t have any boundaries, Love is the most Lethal Criminal in this World, It stays in your heart and Ultimately makes your heart a prisoner, That sort of thing it is
That’s why I hate it, I hate Love”
Well u know let’s leave that question
I wanna have Ice cream, She giggled
Ice cream in this Cold, Yeah She is one of the greatest psychopaths I have ever met
A normal Behaving Psychopath
She ordered Ice cream
We were together
We were Like Fire and Ice together
She said, Can I ask you a question??
Yeah Go Ahead, I told
“Did you ever? I mean by mistake or something, Have you ever Loved me??”
I Froze
Mine mind blacked out
Yeah She was the one I loved
I was mad at her
I never knew this Stoned heart would fall for someone someday
But it didn’t only fell
It Slipped
We were Friends
We each were another half to each other
We smiled together
We wiped our tears
We were addicted to each other
Hours and hours-long chat for nothing
We couldn’t sleep without talking
One day she asked me to come online, I was about to take a shower, I couldn’t say no to her
So I Started Bathing and also chatting with my one hand, Well I was Crazy, Wasn’t I?
Slowly things changed
She started falling for my other friend
She went away from me
Our conversation shortened
Don’t know how many nights I Cried for her
Well, Why did I Cry?
She wasn’t my GF?
Why couldn’t I live without her?
My days started To Blacken
My nights were awake
I was Choked
Unwanted Feelings
Unwanted Love
Why did I fall for her so much
Why couldn’t I predict this?
At least I would have gone far away from her
But I had already gone far away from myself
Days and night I would be Burning myself
I would put myself dead in a casket and buried them
I was the Undertaker To the Dead mine
I would see them together in the class, together in the canteen and the images would run in my Mind,
Making my Tears fall Out
Slowly Things Changed
I decided to wake up, woke up from the dream that I never wanted to see
I built up myself, brick by brick
Recovering is evening harder than suffering I guess
Everything became normal
One day they broke up
Some months back I would have died to see that
But you know
Everything was Late
I consoled her
I assured her that I would always be there for her, as I have always been
And I kept my promise, and one day, She said, Plz Tell me and for mine sake, Plz don’t Lie
“No I never, Common yar, U were my friends, Of course, those boys would have told you,
you know how they used to mock us, It’s nothing like that”
I just did the biggest Lie of my Life
Well, But it didn’t hurt
Because I have been used for being hurt
I could never confess to her that I loved her
I think that only was the Biggest Lie
Hehe, it’s ok, I just asked, Well you are going to the US tomorrow right? Won’t you ever return??
I don’t know, If I ever return, I would come first to meet u
She smiled
Ok, I am going back, she said! Have a safe journey to me, I will miss you
But U just came now, I was shocked
She told, Sorry yar But I have some urgent work I have to go now only,
I ran from my work to Just meet you
And here is a gift for you, Byeee, Hope we will meet again
She went
I Toured the wrapper of her gift
It was a diary, A new diary, Blank
Only the first page was filled
“For me with a message
Never Forget me”
I smiled
I simply ran through the Blank pages
Then suddenly I Noticed Something
Yes, Not all The Pages were Blank
There was a written page in the middle
Something was written in a new diary?
I became confused
I opened the Page
It was her handwriting I knew
It was a letter, I started reading it
“I came to college with Zero Expectations
Leaving behind all my dear friends
Life was going on
Then a boy came
I thought he would be a normal friend but day by day he became more than that
He was special, a person who cared for me, he was different from others
Yeah He was stupid
But he was my Stupid friend
Then another boy came into my life
I fell in love with him
But in that stage, I forgot the person who was always there for me
Sorry, I know I have hurt you a thousand times, I wanted to apologize but you know I m not strong Like You
You are my strength
And I know that You loved me
U couldn’t confess me ever
And I realized it Late
I know, it’s too late for these all
Sorry for everything that I have caused
And I love U more and more
U know Why I am writing this letter?
Tomorrow we will be meeting for the last time
I will ask you a question
if your answer is yes, This letter will be with me Forever, if no, it would be in your hands, I m practicing, practicing to laugh if you say no tomorrow If tomorrow I will smile and go
I would be crying from inside
But don’t worry
U have shed lots of tears for me
Let me shed some for you
I can’t think how my life will go without you
I will try to smile remembering all your jokes
I will try to be Strong, as you always tell me
I will try to be the person that you always wanted me to be
And I can’t write more
If tomorrow I got my answer as Yes, It would be a happy moment for you, You and I would be together Forever, If not, If fate Has written something else for Us
I would Try to Live in Your Memories
Because I know I have committed that mistake, For which I need to suffer
I am waiting for Tomorrow
But after tomorrow You might go forever
So I hope Tomorrow Never Comes
And don’t tear this letter if you get it
Keep it as my memory forever
When you read it again
U will find me in it
Your Stupid little brainless girl but
It’s time to go…
And I m saying what I needed to say a long time ago
“I Love U “…..
My heart stopped there
Tears started rolling
I ran to the Road
Rain was gone
And she too
I badly wanted to Cry
Hope I could reverse the time
But I couldn’t
She was gone forever
Leaving me Crying
Crying for one Last Time.
